i want it all i want every problem back, every man boy whatever they're considered i want feeling back. i want it back.

i want to get my ass kicked by something i want to FEEL again. i can almost cry but i can't, i need something to push me over the edge, i am begging for overkill, excess.

where are the married men? where are the teachers and US soldiers? where are the boring boys? there's nothing. nothing.

i could scream or punch a wall, i'd give it all, anything, just to feel more than restless, like i need out of this skin, into something more exciting.

i'm crawling