i felt giddy opening the box. this idiotic grin plastered to my face, like i had just fallen in love.

first thing in the morning i got an extra 20 bucks worth of gas and drove till i was lost. i went into a cemetery i've never heard of. i found a field. i found a church and the beginnings of a storm in the sky.

i took pictures of everything and i ignored your text messages, because hello, you are not what i need in my life, sorry. be more thrilling.

so all day i sang and drove and i took pictures of things that made me ache inside.

in my sleep i dreamt of a storm bigger than the one that came after my drive. and i just hope that this time i'm right.