3:32 p.m. - 2008-08-26

i finally understand, am starting to understand in the midst of our miscommunication which i must let ride for at least....well probably until the next time i'm drunk because then i'm so honest about wanting you, i won't be able to hold it in. but i'm starting to understand, si tu no vuelves. the way i miss you. i didn't see until just now. i'm so done trying to figure out my feelings for you, but i understand now that truly, if you don't come back so many things will lose meaning. life can't be as beautiful if i don't have you to want and to hate and get crazy over and just exist with. if you don't come back, i will not recover. i know i won't always feel like this, but right now you're what i need in my life. you're it and if you leave, if you're gone it's not alright because right now i can't exist without you. if you were not on this campus, my life here would lose a significant amount of meaning. i understand now, what they talk about in stories. i understand. Before and After