I'm like a stranger I've only ever read about. When I talk to all my old friends, I have to remember, "How did I used to talk? Would I have said this 3 years ago?" It's an endless fight with the delete button. My statements are so flat, tinted with forced comedy. I used to be sarcastic, right? I can still use sarcasm? Okay, let me throw in some sarcasm. Was that funny? Will everyone reading this be able to see that I have disappeared, and some stranger has taken over this life?I feel like I need to study myself, take a semester long course on who I used to be, and perhaps at the end I can mimic it convincingly.
But then again, perhaps, I am simply lost.